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[oyashiromama]

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Alani iamthatsea | Spiritual A half-human who was always more than a little on the outside. She wanted to make her people proud and carry on her religion and culture. She struggled against violent instincts that were contrary to everything she worked for. Am I talking about Alani, or my daughter, Ouka? It was foolish of me to start seeing her as that, but I couldn't help it. Even after I remembered Rika, I wanted to... I don't know. I wanted to give her the parental love she never got...and that I so struggled to give Ouka. It's too late now. It blinded me to the truth, and the dangers...and in the end, I lost her too. The gatcha machine left me an audio recording of her, trying to get in touch with someone who seemed important to her. ...I can hear her voice whenever I want, but...it might be too raw, right now. Given recent events. I will keep the Bluemother alive for you. As long as I can. ¶

Orihime Inoue introspects | Harmonious One of the two who can see spirits. I find myself putting a lot of trust in Orihime. At first, I believed her to be...almost naive in our present situation. That which I mistook for naivete was and still is boundless kindness and optimism. Orihime confuses me, as she's so sweet and kind, especially to one such as myself, but she has this determination in her...this fire that I find admirable. I thought she and Watanuki had something romantic going on, but apparently not. She thought that he and I- auu, it's embarrassing to think about, so embarrassing! The sleepover was one of the most wonderful experiences I've ever had. I pray more will happen. I pray I won't find her corpse one morning. ...She listens...incredibly well. I wish... I wish I could spare her from this cruel world of monsters and demons. Against all odds... I really do want to show her Hinamizawa. ∞

Bruce Wayne byday | Distinguished I don't know what to make of Bruce Wayne. At first I thought he was sensible enough, friendly to talk to, a good business man, but... The first trial. We all saw a side of him we didn't think possible. It horrified me...because none of us could stop him. People resorting to torture unnerved me then, but the more I remember-- I can't trust him. I can't bring myself to approach him either. ∞

Chiyuki stepout | Sympathetic There's nothing you can do about tragedy. It will always happen. Therefore, make as many happy memories as you can. I didn't realize how relevant this would be to me. Chiyuki, I wish I could talk to you about it. I wish I could talk to you about how the lessons I'm learning keep repeating themselves. How everything keeps... About death. What I'm doing, you'd find it unnatural, wouldn't you? I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't keep you safe. Or talk with you more. I hope... It's an ugly feeling but I hope Kira's death gave you justice. Not very god-like of me, is that? Make as many happy memories as you can. I hope the ones I made with you were enough. I'll watch out for Kimbley for you. In whatever way I can. ¶

Christo certaingiant | Practical The first one like me I'd seen in so long. I was so overwhelmed, and yet... Now I don't know what to think. I don't know what he was, or if it matters. I know that, in whatever way, it was for his own good, but I can't help but... They're a sign of how I couldn't live the life I wished to. Conceptualizing it as anything else is so difficult for me. Let alone...what happened to him, and my relationship with Alani. Christo was a kind soul who I enjoyed talking with...and I hope he's found peace...but I don't think his soul would appreciate words from someone like me. ¶

Killia deofoled | Individualistic The other demon here. So many of our conversations have been tense and awkward, but I feel a kinship, even though we aren't the same kind of demon. Fraught with misunderstandings and tiptoeing over taboo subjects... Still, I want to know him. I want to know what the Netherworlds are like, I want to know what it feels like growing up with other demons...in your own home...and feeling like you belong. But right now, I've so many other things to worry about. Maybe at least I can keep trying his food. ∞

Varric Tethras neverheardofhim | Balanced A man who tells stories and fights demons. He calls me Feather, as it seems he nicknames everyone. I like speaking with him. His strong protective instinct to the younger of our number...it's reassuring. His honoring the dead. We taught each other a task each, sewing and chess. On the other hand... I know the world is an awful place...but I'd like to see as little suffering as I can, because I've seen so much. Varric's anger worries me. I fear what may happen, if someone he cares for immensely dies. I hope we can keep from going after each other for our pasts here. He acknowledges the fault in this thinking, we agree to disagree, but it worries me still. Everything worries me... I should try to relax. He's a good man. ∞

Oerba Dia Vanille ravagers | Encouraging The first one of them I vowed to protect. Such a sweet and sad girl with no regard for herself. Vanille's one I worry much for. She seems to get along with most everyone, and I can imagine why; there's a bright light to her. I don't know if my encouragement for her to care more for herself has done anything, but I pray it has. I wish to help her more. She and Alani seemed so close, and I meant to take more care of her but... My own problems are enveloping me. I hope nothing slips through the cracks. ∞

Gangrel plegia | Ruthless A tyrant who loves war, violence, and seeing his enemies fall. The good thing about him is he makes no attempts to cover this up or excuse his actions. It's not like he wants to repent for anything he's done, but he won't do it here and that's what's important. He knows I can't condone such things and didn't expect me to, which is also...nice, I suppose. I'm not like what he imagined a god to be. Is that a good thing...? I don't know. If it's far from what the village thinks, then...I'll take it. A funny thing about Gangrel is that he too likes cream puffs. Even tyrants have a sweet-tooth. I wish he'd stop laughing during the trials, though. There's nothing fun about any of them. ∞

Zolf J. Kimbley alchemicals | Incendiary I wasn't sure what to make of him. I'm still not, in some ways, but...I'm getting closer. Kimbley is a man whose only joy comes from war and killing people. A man like that I wouldn't expect to enjoy speaking with, but he was... The third trial weighed heavily on him, losing two people he spoke with regularly, and he continuously gets suspected during them in general. I'm not pleased with that. We can't turn on each other, from presumptions. More than that... I can understand him in some ways. The isolation. The emotional shutoff. I couldn't empathize with his situation... I understand hating the loneliness. I understand feeling...outside. I understand wanting to just stop. He is, however, an inverse of myself. I didn't feel either doing as my species was expected either, but I was expected to simply fight. I have confidence that he won't kill here...not on a whim. He's one I don't feel like I have to worry about on that front, strangely enough. It won't get him anything after all, right? I'll look after him, for Chiyuki. I don't know what they talked about, or how close they were, really...but it feels like the thing to do in her memory. ∞

Yoshikage Kira avoidcomplications | Average He killed her. Kira killed Chiyuki, so he could go on killing. No regard for others, his actions and attitude here- I deemed him unforgivable...at least by my standards. I feel strange doing that. It was for the best though. Strange, but I wouldn't take it back. Despite everything, I wish I could understand him. Orihime's right, there is something... I could be a better god if I could understand people such as him. Everything he did- May there be a god who can accept you, because I certainly cannot, Yoshikage Kira. ¶

Elda Marker matchbreaker | Indomitable I didn't think I'd get along with her at first, but... Elda is my friend. We agreed, until we get out of here, or until...she kills someone, Elda is my friend. I pray the second doesn't come to pass. I've told her much about my past, about...Riku, and how he died. I've told her about Ouka- at least, some about Ouka. Not...everything. Regardless, she knows so much and there's part of her that understands, but there's also part of her that hates humans. ...While I don't like how humanity or society works, much of the time, I love humans. I strive to be with them, so... We clash. Regardless. She called my horns beautiful, and she continues to be sympathetic to me, despite our difference in opinions. I cried with her, when she learned of her husband. She even offered to take me back to her home, when she wasn't sure if I'd be going back to anyone... ...I can't seem to tell her about the hardships I'm suffering through. About Rika's death...or that it keeps repeating. It seems whenever my memories are sad, hers are happy, and vice-versa. I wish...that wasn't so. I'm getting very tired. ∞

Sportacus sportadork | Supportive Oh, this man. Sportacus is like nothing I've seen, his title truly fits him in every way. No matter who it is, he seems willing to lend them a friendly ear or a kind word. He was the first I told about Rika's death. ...The initial death, I mean. I'm not sure...he can last in a place like this, though. His spirits are dying, if his body is not. Judy and Nick... Their passing nearly broke him. I pray he will hold on. I can try to make happy memories for him, I can, but- I don't know how many I have in me anymore. Maybe I'll try some more fruits. Just for him. ∞

Angela "Mercy" Ziegler modernmedicine | Restoring Angela... She helped us all so much. Not just in the trials, she was a comforting presence. For her knowledge and her demeanor. The woman could keep us on task and keep going, after all she'd seen and... And I admired her. Going willingly into war...to heal people. To save others, not kill. Even I had to...to save lives... The doctor was a good woman, and she's...very missed. ...I don't know how we're going to survive without her... ¶

Gold uncouthhatcher | Mischievous One of the four here familiar with creatures called Pokémon. Gold's someone full of energy and seeking fun and relaxation. When we first met, Gold seemed interested in my life as a god, though not overly so. He taught me how to make cream puffs, and talked with me, and I quickly took to him. He's the sort of boy who doesn't want to let others see when he's hurting. He has to be strong, and brave, and...after Chiyuki's death, he opened up to me about what seems to be a deep insecurity regarding being rejected. ...He was drunk, I think. He worries, and he offers to share my burdens...and he told me I'm human as him here. I want to protect him...or at least, I don't want to see any harm come to him. I want Gold to live a long, happy life. I pray he will, every day. ...After I remembered him, I started picking up a similarity, so to speak. Gold began to remind me of Keiichi, and that wasn't at all a bad thing, the boy's energetic and fun-loving and has a good heart, but... After some of my most recent memories... I'm worried that this comparison will prove less than auspicious. Please, Gold. Don't do anything drastic. Please stay alive...and keep from killing anyone else. ∞

Silver feistytrader | Perserving >One of the four here familiar with creatures called Pokémon. Silver is an awkward, thoughtful boy with a quiet overflowing kindness. At first, it seems he thought I was a Pokémon, and his partner Weavile did as well. A cute misconception. Regardless, he was one of those who bowed his head when he learned of my nature, but still he treats me like a person, not an unreachable deity. He openly admits to not understanding me and my forgiving ways, but he's respectful of them. ...Especially after Alani... There are so many burdens on his shoulders. It seems when he was younger - eleven, in fact - he, Gold, and their friend Crys were involved in some sort of world-saving event. I want to ask but at the same time the thought of them putting themselves in so much danger, of ones so young having to take on that responsibility... He tells me not to, but I worry. When I asked what I could do to help him, he told me to be more selfish. It hurts...apparently...to see me struggle with so many people's troubles. It's not easy for me to do this, but...I'm trying. For him. He and Gold made me food to cheer me up this week. He is another whose safety and survival I pray for, so fiercely. May I be able to see at least one child live. ∞

Guzma acherontiastyx | Rebellious >One of the four here familiar with creatures called Pokémon. Guzma interests me, as he's someone who insists on not being kind but his actions prove otherwise. We first met yelling across the foyer. Looking back on it, it still makes me laugh, on better days. He's called "Rebellious" but all of his rebelling that I've seen has been tame, and charming. I helped him decorate the halls with duct tape, and each time we're forced to take to the trials, he's so... He's so forceful about the Wordsmith taking responsibility of his own. Especially with Alani. So many of our conversations involve me asking questions, often embarrassing ones, based on how little of the world I've experienced in such a long time. Still, I enjoy speaking with him. These conversations are fun, despite some of them being...a little strange in topic. He seems to take the deaths hard. With each passing one... I'm glad he has some of his partners back. He's a fan of bugs. I wonder if there is a Pokémon resembling Hinamizawa's cicadas, the higurashi. That nostalgic noise...I miss it. Whenever we talk, I think of it. ∞

Lusamine elepe | Maternal >One of the four here familiar with creatures called Pokémon. Lusamine's polite, formal, and very concerned with etiquette, it seems. She's a proper lady with a strong protective streak for the children here. I find it fortunate that she and I both stand by Gold in the trials, to keep him from doing anything impulsive. There's a kind of distance in her formality, I've found. At least, that's how she appears to me. It doesn't seem bad, just that she's focused on maintaining a sense of order. She addresses me as Ms. Furude and early on wanted to make sure she wasn't being disrespectful of my position. It's charming... This collection of people, from this world, they all interact with me in a... I can't even describe it, like what I am is more tangible to them. Just something of note. With each passing death, like Guzma, she seems to grow more and more nervous and unnerved. Please hold together Lusamine. Especially now, we need a level head. ∞

Jasper iaspis | Militant ...I worried after the trial. Her laughter, like Gangrel's, it shocked me, and in a snap decision, I figured she was someone to worry about. ...I still believe so. But...in a different way. Jasper is... ...Jasper is somewhat like I was. She is learning things for the first time, having time to herself and it's affecting her, somehow. She's... It seems like she's making friends, or at least...wondering how things could be different? After never having an opportunity to do such a thing. As a result, she worries. She tries to prevent deaths. She seems like someone reasonable, sensible, despite that flair of...something, something incredibly worrying. I... I don't know what to do with this. ∞

Estellise Sidos Heurassein firstaid | Noble A thoughtful girl who seems very centered on the ideas of when it's right to kill or not. We've talked about the nature of sin, of the burdens one holds when taking a life. The first death traumatized her so much I spent my time making sure she was alright. It's a strange thing to hear from such a girl. I admit I should have expected it more, considering we first met over such a discussion, but Estellise is almost preoccupied with thoughts of morality, ones I wouldn't expect for a girl her age. Just what has she seen? A friend of hers has killed to uphold justice and save others. She's spoken of her power before, though I haven't asked in depth. What else has she experienced...? Overall, she wants so much to help others. She comforted me, despite not knowing quite what to say, both after Alani and...after remembering more of home. More than anything else, she loves books. She'll get sucked into them, an escape that I think is good, considering the place we're in. There's a gentle naivete to her. ...I hope she never loses it. ∞

	Milla Maxwell spiritform | Peerless I hadn't spoken with her much...and I wish I had. A whole bunch of happy memories missed... Why were there so many swords? ¶

Mikazuki Munechika tsugomori | Elegant An ancient sword given physical form. Mikazuki's world and life fascinate me, though questions about them both have fallen by the wayside, due to...the circumstances here. My first impressions of him seem to be farther and farther from the truth; I'd thought him a rather spacey person, head in the clouds and living in the present. The more I see of him, the more I realize there's so much more to him. He's kind and pensive, and in his seemingly thoughtless actions there lies a lot of care and planning. A comforting soul, he seems to have taken to those who have a hard time connecting with others along with the rest of us. Gangrel, strangely, seems to get along with him. Killia as well. Mikazuki and Killia, their bond is heartwarming. Looking after one another, cooking for the other... I pray they can remain that way. This week's incentive appears like it's been hard on him as well. I should ask, but...I've so much on my mind. ∞

Adelina bloodbiter | Securing A girl who revered me like a god...yet treated me like a friend. I enjoyed reading together, speaking, telling her about my life...and before I remembered Rika, it was such a comfort, to have someone reach out and say I could talk to her. She was a child I wanted to keep safe, but... I'll read more fairy tales for you. I'll imagine...you're the princess, earning your happily ever after. It's the least I can do since I couldn't keep you safe. ¶

Kyrie Ushiromiya bloodbiter | Securing Kyrie Ushiromiya, a woman with a keen mind and...a startling initiative. She seemed content to puzzle through this with the rest of us, but she was, in fact, the first of us to turn on the others. I helped corner her in the trial...and it felt like killing another human, in some ways. I was so focused on Adelina that I hadn't thought of it like that until after. I promised her I would let her husband and daughter know that she wasn't coming back if I got out of here...but truthfully, I don't think I will. Still, if I can...I'd like to follow through on this promise. The first I offered forgiveness, despite what she'd done. I'm not what she expected in a god... Is that good? "A story," she said Hinamizawa was. Keiichi, Rika, Satoko... I wish I could ask her...how that story ends. ¶

Kimihiro Watanuki foundfate | Independent The first one I spoke to. Watanuki has a special ability, and that's that he can see and speak with spirits. Here, it doesn't matter, but before I knew this place gave me a real, physical form, he was... Well, his way of greeting me was more reassuring than I have words for. Because of this, I've taken to him quickly. He's considerate, taking note of my growing discomfort during ghost story night, and checking in on me often. He's also funny, and a little playful. Nick- ...well, Nick liked to rile him up. I told him...so much of my past. Not as much about Riku, but about Ouka. About how I died. It seems so easy to speak with him, like I can open up about everything. I pray he feels the same. That nonsense about how he "shouldn't exist" makes me want to reach out to him more. ...I tried so hard to believe in him, and I still do. That's...something special for me. He said he'll hope when I can't. He...held me, while I cried about the memories of Ouka, and my growing helplessness. I... Orihime thought there was something- a-aah, romantic...between us. A silly thought, of course, I'm so old after all! ...Still, he... ...at times...I feel like he reminds me of Riku. Please live, Watanuki. I want...to see you live and be happy. ∞

Viktor Nikiforov quadruples | Capricious Of everyone here, Viktor seems the most normal. He's a figure skater, a good one, it seems, with an- a-aah, impressive figure, you could say. Though I don't know him quite well, he organized a fun truth or dare event and for that I must say I thank him. He seems to take everything with a smile- well, almost everything. He was so torn up about Chiyuki, I reached out to him, just to be there. ...Of course, I'm not in much of a state to be there for anyone right now, but... No matter. It seems he's remembering good things, if the comments I catch mean anything. About getting married. The man he loves. Someone deserves to remember good things. I'm glad it's someone as well-meaning as him. ∞

Phi plentyfriendly | Rational A girl who seems more serious and less social, but not to a rude extent. She's logical, and we need that around here. It seems she has a power somewhat comparable to mine. She can send her consciousness across time and space, across dimensions, like I can do for Rika. I didn't even have to liken mine to time travel for her to understand the idea of it- and apparently there's a name for it where she's from. I'm under no belief that we can do the same thing, considering the difference in species and origin, and it's likely coincidence that our abilities line up so much. Still, it's a comfort to speak to someone familiar with such a thing. I'm learning more about her life and...it all sounds so complicated. Maybe moreso than mine...? ...Probably not. It may have taken an empty syringe, but I'm glad she's putting some trust in me. ∞

Judy Hopps officerhops | Determined Judy died to try and help us escape. From the first moment I saw her, I was captivated. A talking rabbit, and I'd never seen the animal in-person, I was amazed- But she was more than that, she was...an energy, around here. A fierce fire, never giving up and never stopping, and it was inspiring, I think, especially... Well, especially in these last weeks, for someone like me. To hear about her time in the Academy, to see her working so hard... I just wanted to give her some peace and calm her racing mind. I...did nothing in the end. She's gotten us a new source of information, but at the cost of her and Nick's lives. I wonder...if she would consider...at least her own life...worth it? I hope not. "Determined" to the end, is that it? ...You deserved to live. ¶

Nick Wilde officerwilde | Guilful Nick died to try and help us escape. A joker, a sarcastic, cynical talking fox who was or was not a police officer. He argued with Watanuki at every trial, and he rarely seemed to take things seriously, but... He was fun to talk to. I believed him to be like a kitsune when we first met, but the reality is much more interesting. He was hard to get to know, but...I still wished, at least somewhat... ... Rika would've loved him. A fluffy funny fox. Why does thinking about that hurt so much? ¶

	??? wordsmithery | Wordsmith ...I don't know what to make of him. Nothing I can say describes the conversation's we've had. Wordsmith. Who are you? Who were you? ...What is it you would like about...? If I can't understand him, we'll all die here. ∞

Hanyuu Furude oyashiromama | Cynical It was looking up. For the moment, at least, I had a way to enjoy myself. People to connect with. ...Foolish belief... I understand my age now. I understand everything written about me. I understand my secret. I've shared this with...a fair few. It's impossible to hide my despair, especially that day. Especially after that infuriating incentive. Keep trying. That's how I feel too, I must keep trying, but- so much falls on her shoulders. I can't seem to prevent the tragedies plaguing Rika...nor the ones plaguing those here. I fear...for if Watanuki, or Orihime, or Gold, or Silver, or Elda- for so many...to find them dead. To think I believed I could do something. To think I believed I could save her, or anyone. This place is bad enough, but knowing what there is to go back to. ...If there's anything to go back to. I can only pray I was taken from just after we reset. If not, then-- I can't die here. If I do- if I do, then- Rika. Forgive me. Forgive this powerless god. I want to spend more time with you. I can't let you go yet. ∞

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